In here we can be pure of heart

The times when I have an abundance of exams all at once are often when I find myself getting the most creative...or the most distracted when I really should be studying..rather.

Hours and days of studying without stopping leave my mind craving freedom..and this leads to explosions of creativity.

My mind aches for an escape..because even in sleep I am studying. I wake up from silly dreams about getting some rare disease which I made up in my head because I was studying it the night before for pathology. Or I end up drawing things like this for neuro instead of drawing diagrams of tracts:



I was thinking it'd be cool to create a whole series based on the human body an anatomy through paintings and mixed media. Now only if I had the time..haha. But I am currently working on a series of lung disease paintings. Sadly my procrastination hasn't spared that.

Now I leave you with one of my all-time favorite songs by the awesome Jupiter Sunrise. The title is the name of a character from a book I used to love years back that had to do with faeries and things. I know it's not usually the type of music I post on this blog..but it possesses the same beauty that Ms. Goulding or Mr. Iver can possess..in a less "flowery" sense.

Birds and New York's neverending winter..

Here in New York winter seems to last forever. It's from late November to the end of March..which seems like a lifetime. The nights are longer..days are shorter..it's constant darkness and frigid air. I try to value every moment of daylight I can salvage by spending it outside...so this past weekend I visited a friend in the city...got myself a Valentine's Day donut and then we visited the central park zoo. We spent a lot of time in the bird exhibit since she adores the feathered fellas and it was 100 times warmer inside. Made me feel like I was back in the keys again.

Wish it was Caturday...

I'm even more crammed with classes and work this semester..unfortunately this blog might suffer.

Aside from ridiculous amounts of snow and roads converted to skating rinks..I've had a pretty solid week so far.

It was one of my co-worker's birthdays and she's basically in love with cats. So I made her a cake that resembles her own..Mister Snowy.




It's two layers of chocolate fudge cake with a layer of strawberries and vanilla frosting in between.



Other than that..I've been losing sleep and learning about the intricacies of the human brain.

Poetry and ramblings..

I was digging through a lot of writing files and found some things I had written in the past year..some thoughts..some rambles..some bullshit poetry:

Last night,
Staring out the car window,
Suddenly my shoes were gone and I was sitting in my thick wool socks on the sofa.
Reminds me of when we were time travelers
Painting your attic.

The rain falls like rockets to the moon but in reverse because they are traveling towards the earth. But they imprint in the puddles like a finger pressed in fresh clay…but instead the puddle absorbs them and they are no longer visible. Just as you left tiny imprints, tiny dents on my heart and being, but this new me, this new healing has absorbed them and they are no more.

This next one is words from you to me. That’s why I can’t relate to it as much as the others. I understand now. But I wish it were really you saying those words. Instead in my mind there is just a dust bunny where your words should be. Where you should be saying these things to me. How do I collect these cobwebs and dispose of the rotten fruit? It reeks of things past and memories I shouldn’t dwell on. If I clean up the mess that encompasses that space, then will there be room for your apology?

And you just squeeze your temples and then release and breathe like giving birth to thoughts you want to get rid of and release..or perhaps thoughts that are now positive and you want to birth them out so you can be born anew. Or squeezing your eyes shut like wringing out a sponge of it’s filth.

I love mining up memories and digging my shovel in places forgotten where the dust hasn’t yet been brushed off.

Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen..

I found this a while ago..and basically I fell in love. Ellie Goulding AND one of Elton John's awesome songs? Amazing. Also the video is really pretty:

Vacation: Florida Keys

Last week I went to the Florida Keys. My friend and I tramped around in a tent for a week jumping from campsite to campsite and sleeping on the gorgeous warm beaches. My current self is very jealous of my previous vacation self...I can't stand all this NY snow.

Here are a few photos from my trip:

Christmas...giving and recieving..

I had a secret santa at work..so I made my person a Nirvana pillow..since they like Nirvana. I recieved the red bag from my secret santa..it's amongst the following photos of gifts I got this year.

The drawing of the deer with the colored background is just a little something I did at work when I had a free minute..

These gifts are from friends and family...mostly chocolates, scarves and tea-themed trinkets. I didn't ask for much..the only thing I wanted was for my parents to help out with paying for college.

Anyways..here's my gift haul!










Hope everyone had a lovely Christmas!